IS WHAT I'M DOING ADVISABLE? PLS ANSWER (read details)?

You can drink alone i think.. it's when you start to black out, and not remember things, or drive while drinking or involve yourself in other dangerous behavior.. maybe you should limit yourself to one or two drinks (alone) per day if you are really concerned. Try calling a hotline if you have more questions or visiting an al-anon website or something. and liek you said if you are an honor student you wouldn't wanna ruin that.. so get help while you still think you might have a problem instead of later on down the road when you are denying it to yourself as well as others.. good luck!